48 Page A4 Exercise Book

The healing you experience after post-traumatic growth is supposed to extend as far as the place where the hurt initially came from. Take it from a guy who's always been cornered by the expectation of being the ''bigger person'' after a great big emotional mix up of misunderstandings and poorly articulated feelings - your healing is as much for the person who hurt you as much as it is for you. It stands to perfect reason why you'd want absolutely nothing to do with the person who hurt you; just heal and carry on with life as normal, right? At best, wish them well and never devote another moment of your thought towards them. It also stands to reason why someone would rather carry the grudge with them. Even if people say they aren't holding grudges, you can almost see the barbed wires cutting into their hearts... you can hear it in their voice that there's still anger. Wherever there's anger, you'll see that it's actually pain if you in...

Hemostasis Phase In the time that I've been away, I noticed that I've been running from something. Facing up to who I'm capable of being was simple enough when it was to see the brighter side of things. But it'd become more about staring into the abyss, the parts that I could see were still dark now that the light was shining on them. In the time that I've been away, I learned how to process fear. There was a time when it had gotten all too easy to use the Loft as an escapist tool - I'd have an idea, say some words, be an optimist about it and start over. For a few hours a week, I could get away from the real issues and spread positivity to the few I write for. But I felt divorced from my own writing, and each new post drew me further away from myself. Beyond the chattering activity of my mind's renewal was the hallow sound of a much darker place that I was poorly prepared look into, so I stayed in the light and let it blind me so I wouldn...